Friends,
I have written over many times to have an answer for, “Tell me about your Jesus.”
Why I struggle so, I cannot tell you. It is not that I don’t know, it is being clear and staying on track.
I have reposted one of my favorites about Peter. Peter’s life and interactions with Jesus made me realize the power of the Truth. This recount of Peter standing up is so very powerful for me.
I want to be transparent with you. I believe we might all have this same struggle of sharing who Christ Jesus is, truly in our lives and to the world. Why He matters whether you want Him to or not.
For me, it begins with the Bible, but it all is so much more than that…it is a relationship, it is truth/ reality, it is a life forever changed…
Here is part of my struggle, only because you are dear to me do I share before I have concluded:
I read the bible and my heart and spirit are full. I go to church and my spirit is filled. I am sure of Jesus and my faith. One day later I want to put to words who Jesus is and why I believe in Him and my mind and mouth go dead. I hate myself for this.
I am not talking about reciting what the bible tells me about Jesus, but what I know. Know without a doubt, know to the point of giving my life to Him. The knowledge that when faced with death, gives me the courage to cling to the One I have never seen face to face but know and long to know more with every fiber of my being.
I have to step back from trying to push myself through and look back from where I am, to where I have been, and who I have become. As always, when I stop wrestling and listen, He answers me. This is what I know.
The Bible is the living word of God. It is as relevant today as it was thousands of years ago. It is relevant not because I say so or you say so, but because it is inspired by God. Yes, recorded by man, but, I don’t envision God chewing His fingernails hoping we get it right, do you?
The Bible tells me about God: The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. It records the good, the bad and the ugly of the human race. Who I am and who I am not is revealed to me and it is painful. Who wants to read something that has so much drudgery and death? I guess only those who want to truly find out what the message of the Bible is. Scripture is the recorded word of God. The almighty, all-powerful, all-knowing, loving, merciful, living God.
Why does this matter? I am giving my life to a person who claims to be one with God. One with God, what does that mean? Same as God, equal with the Father? Yes. So, am I just going to blindly follow another because they say they are one with the Father? Not at all, would you?
I have to reason that if all that is written about Jesus is a lie, He would not be such an issue. Who would care? When I read about others of ancient days I am ashamed to say I don’t question the truth of the writing, though maybe I should. What does it matter today what Julius Caesar did thousands of years ago? Does it affect me? No, he is not relevant today. What is written about him doesn’t change a person’s life today. Did it matter what Jesus did thousands of years ago? If you encountered Him it did.
Jesus made a difference whether a person wanted Him to or not…
Please remember, this is my work in process. I am thinking out loud and sharing it with you.
