Order
Genesis 1
There are days that I question everything. My choice of profession, getting married, staying married, having children, and raising children. More recently, I wonder about the state of the world and the state of human beings. Finances are a constant struggle as well as maintaining our home, my health, and the health and condition of my family. It seems just when I think I have found balance, something else adds to my juggling struggle.
Recently, I was so overwhelmed by everything. I could not look and see my way out of anything. My focus had been on my trials. The burden of maintaining my worries, my lack of sleep, our lack of finances, and my lack of faith left me feeling so very alone even though I had not been.
I was standing in line at the grocery store and overheard this woman talking on her phone. “And then she said…” was all I heard. I strained to listen to her conversation. Then again, all I could hear: “and then she said…”. What did “she,” say, I wondered. It sounded interesting, a diversion from my worries. Something I would wonder for a short time, but would never know.
That night I couldn’t sleep. I made lists in my head. I had heated conversations with people who were absent, and probably completely unaware I hold issue with them. I got out of bed and went upstairs to sit in the dark and converse with God. Why do I so often think of him last?
I sat in the dark, looking out into the night. Angry tears and desperate tears would fall freely. I cried until I suddenly noticed that out there in the night, the moon’s light was pushing back the darkness. I was silent as I sat there, taking in the quiet peace. My focus changed from myself and on to the One who made the light that pierced the darkness. The One who gave the order to the night. The One who gave the order and sustained all creation. My worries and I became very small as the LORD of all filled my eyes with wonder, my mind with awe, and my heart with peace.
And there I was, in the dark remembering the woman in line but hearing instead, “ And God said,”
God said, and it came into being. God was and is intentional in His order and purpose. It was good, and it was perfect. He didn’t just go about making fish without water, or fruit without seed. God didn’t wring his hands or pace the floor. He didn’t wonder or worry about how he would manage all the water he had created. He is the God of order, and He created with order and wisdom. He gave thought to his actions.
He has a plan for today and tomorrow.
He has a plane not only for the world but for each of us
Lord Jesus,
Please forgive me when I step away from you and try to manage on my own.
Forgive me for all the times I leave you behind. I cannot walk in this world and have peace, security, and even order without You leading me.
Holy Spirit, help me. Please help me stay tethered to Christ so that I can walk firm the path He leads me.
I want to be faithful and obedient. Search me, and refine me. Change me to be more like Christ Jesus.
I want order in my life. Please help me to live with order and purpose. Show me how to live daily with intentionality.
My heart desires to live a life that glorifies You.
